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Rosie Peacock's avatar

Being a mama requires so much sacrifice and dedication and patience and so does being in partnership, this was a beautiful read and I can relate to many of the things you’ve experienced

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SYDNEY PORTER ꩜'s avatar

Yes yes yes, I’ve been sitting with the idea of sacrifice + compromise when it comes to family life for many years now. It’s such a delicate balance between giving your all, but not giving your whole self. I’m in the process yet again of redefining who I am in the world, and WOW what a empowering feeling it is to do so! Sending you so much love mama! <3

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Maneesha Sem 🐚's avatar

this was so beautifully written my angel. i felt it when you said that you have now become a woman more expansive than the girl who breathed life into this lifestyle/marriage. usually contrast comes up to be transcended when there’s a greater life ahead. this is a sign that your marriage with your husband is meant to expand in a way that didn’t even think would be possible. lots of intimacy and peace and passion. you are doing so well 🤍

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SYDNEY PORTER ꩜'s avatar

Thank you my love! It is such powerful and deep work to nurture a relationship with the intention for it to be lifelong. It’s been especially interesting on this path, as I did not have many (or any) examples of what it is like to navigate the death + rebirth cycle within a partnership!

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Maureen Du Preez's avatar

Resonating deeply. Thanks for the beautiful words. 🙏🏻

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SYDNEY PORTER ꩜'s avatar

Thank you for seeing me love <3

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Ahjanae's avatar

🥹 girl we have been there and it’s a choice we continue make every single day. Sending you and the family so much love!

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SYDNEY PORTER ꩜'s avatar

Whew, the devotion of it all is not for the faint of heart! Sending so much love to you and the fam as well sis ❤️❤️❤️

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Seymone's avatar

Splendid. Your openness and the way you articulate this collective reality is superb ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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SYDNEY PORTER ꩜'s avatar

Thank you 🥹❤️It was many weeks in the making, by far one of my most authentic pieces to date 💌

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Ciara Sūtra's avatar

so beautiful Sydney. thank you for sharing your truth. I see you fully and I’m right there with you!!! It’s not easy but pressure does indeed make diamonds 💎 we are being crafted for greatness, it’s beyond us… It’s funny because someone gifted me this exact small book a month ago! Ty for confirming it’s also exactly what I need 💞

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SYDNEY PORTER ꩜'s avatar

Thank you my love 🥹❤️ So much gratitude to you for seeing me, and taking in the fullness of my expression here 💌 And wow the synchronicities!! I’d love to hear your reflections on the book once you dive into it, it’s truly such a mystical piece of writing ✨ Excited to hear what unfolds for you in the process! Sending so much love to you and the fam 🌹🥰

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Kemet Tenkamenin's avatar

So beautifully written & courageously shared, love. The sharing while in the process is also such medicine. Much respect ♥️

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Kiya Taylor's avatar

Refreshing to see these feelings shared honestly, thank you 🙏🏼

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Courtney Seabrooks's avatar

This is so felt. 🤲🏼

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Toni Washington's avatar

Sydney I needed this 🥺 your situation is very similar to mine, I got married at 22 and im not at all that same girl :( it’s so hard sometimes. Some days I wonder if Im just meant to be alone. all I can do is pray about it. You articulated the longing for solitude perfectly.

Thank you so much for sharing your story❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Victoria Sharpe's avatar

This has definitely helped me have words for how I have been feeling in my union. Thank you

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Nefer's avatar

Reading this peice resonates so profoundly with me and my life as a new mother as I step into the role of a wife. Your words warped my mind to another space in time and encouraged me to allow room for a fuller but softer perspective. Thank you for sharing

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